Confused. Scared. Frustrated.

I found out about 20 minutes ago about the car bombs in Sharm al-Sheik. 30-40 people dead and over a hundred injured. To my relief, Jen is okay, but I still haven't heard from the dozens of other AIESECers who are there.

I've been glued to my computer trying to find out as much information as I can. I've come across articles about how a man was shot in London in connection with the London bombings and how police are starting to do random bag searches on the subways in my home city, New York.

What the hell is this world coming to? It's starting to seem like every week there's another bombing in another country. It's getting TOO NORMAL for me to be sitting at my laptop, waiting for people to comment on nomadlife as to whether or not they're okay! I'm tired of wondering if my friends are dead or alive around the world.

I feel sick.

Confused as to how the world can be continuing to go on while I feel like I've disengaged from it and am looking down at everyone going on with their lives. Will's roommates outside jumping on the trampline... I just want to cry.

When will it happen to someone I know? I hate living in fear.